Surviving the Zombie Apocalypse Virus pt. 8

It's dystopia! 

The world has been dealt a grievous blow from the virus and it appears now, more than ever, that nothing will ever be the same. If you are an educated person like myself, someone who reads regularly, reads the news regularly, and perhaps even watches the news regularly, you should be very alarmed. This is not normal, of course, nor is it a drill, nor is this where we could and should be at this stage in the pandemic. 

We're in a bad place right now. We're seeing the highest numbers of new case increases in a single day. It's very high, something like 4,000-5,000 new cases in a single day, in places like California and Texas. We've already reopened states but the reality of the situation is that if we don't close down all nonessential businesses in say, 4-5 weeks, there will be so many dead people in America, that there will no choice but to close down everything again. Here's the reality; nothing will be done until the shit hits the fan, however, it might be so bad at this current juncture that it's already too late. Sleep on that. 

I work at a grocery store. Today, I received a text from a union representative leader, stating that someone who works at my store was tested positive for the virus. This is the second person who's tested positive at my store, the first one being a worker that has already quarantined, become clean, and is back at work.

The fear of catching the virus is high. If I catch the virus and possibly die, will there be anything left to remember me by? This sort of darknesse is reality. It turns out, in a way, that the company cutting down hours on all employees is actually a good thing. Although we get less money, we're around mass crowded people in the market less [where they're not limiting the numbers of customers allowed in], saving us in the long run from being exposed to the virus more often. But some people need to work a lot of hours and make a lot of money, what about them? They're going to have to deal with having less money and fewer hours, unfortunately.

I'm sort of actually coming to the gravity of the situation recently. I was previously on a two-month leave of absence from work and it was good. I was safe from the virus and did a lot of reading and writing. But now I'm back working with the public, often in crowded aisles and a crowded front end workplace. The situation is dire.

It's only just now hit me today that most things don't matter much anymore. The most important thing right now is your health and finding a way to live.

What I mean to say is that it's finally dawned on me that mine as well as all of us, our collective goals, dreams, desires, and fortunes don't even matter anymore. In a post-COVID-19 world, your goals, dreams, and fortune don't matter one bit, because, in that world, the individual person doesn't matter much because we're all one and the same when it comes to the virus. Rather, I believe, in a post-virus world, the collective unity, the group, the whole human tribe as a whole, matters much more so than any other time in human history. If this thing doesn't bring us together soon, nothing else will.

So as I sit here writing this I think about my future. It doesn't matter if I never become a rock star, or the best selling author, or a computer coder, or any of that crap. Rather, what is more important than any of that is finding a way to live that is meaningful to you. Once this thing continues, it will take more lives, more lives than you can possibly imagine, and in that paradigm, things like money and jobs will decrease in value, because people will spend most of their time in quarantine and isolation so that they, and their loved ones don't die.

The lack of leadership shown in this current administration is shocking and appalling. However, even if Biden takes control in November, there's still a lot of shit that needs to be cleaned up in terms of government, and it could take years to fix that up. Not to mention that there probably won't be a coronavirus vaccine by that time, and Biden will have to form his own strategy against the virus because it will still be ravaging by that time, most likely.

There's a lot to think about. At this moment the best thing we can do is be there for ourselves, our loved ones, and try to find a way to live, a new way to live, that isn't tied down by the constraints of dream jobs, lots of money, and other such desires. Staring at the face of death, into the abyss, it only appears to be staring back at us.