Dehumanizer [Retail Grocery]

Good early morning to you all. I've been on a bit of a hiatus in terms of writing but I'm ready to jump back into the saddle again. Here I'll go into some more details about what the retail grocery experience has been like lately, on the second month of 2022, with covid still rampaging throughout the lands. 

If you want to read about what it was like at work during the worst of times, make sure to read this post here. That was the worst of it. But things aren't perfect the way things are now either. 

A lot has changed in the world of retail grocery in the beginning of 2022. The place is being run less like a business-employee-bosses-customers routine and more of a sweatshop. Our union is fighting to get us employees a better contract. It remains to be seen if it will really be that much better, but it is guaranteed that our wages will get a slight boost. Modest progress. Slow hand clap.  

The departments and the front end department is being run by skeletal crews. Most of the time overtime is being rejected and refused and a lot of hours across the board have been cut severely, despite the fact that the store needs more help and needs more boots on the grounds to get the job done. 

Because of the fact that the departments are more and more being run with fewer and fewer people, the building has taken on the image of more of a sweatshop style environment. You have be very fast paced and not make too many mistakes. It's almost like Amazon or something now. Management demands it.

In the morning, the front end gets three people to work with until 10 am, and later at the evenings, say 8 pm or later, its being run in the same fashion. This has created a sweatshop environment where one employee is forced to take care of tens of dozens of customers singlehandedly, oftentimes with no baggers, so not only are they ringing up the orders, they're greeting the customers, cash handling, as well as bagging the items-whew! 

As if that wasn't enough, upper management seems to have taken up the stiff upper lip direction of managing workers. They're rude, they're pushy, they don't respond when you say hello, how are you, they're pushing employees to do more work during their eight hour shifts but insist on no overtime, they're in support of cutting hours, they don't give much leeway in terms of calling out sick for colds or covid, the list goes on and on. In a way, in short, I want to say that they've engendered a work environment where they try to dehumanize the employees, and sadly, from what I see from my coworkers, they've succeeded sometimes. 

But there's a light at the end of the tunnel isn't there? Of course. Although this industry seems to have been dehumanized and turned into a sweatshop by upper management and their meandering response to the pandemic, for me, the job has only become better. 

You see, I've become simpatico with lots of customers and while I've walked the Earth I've engendered reciprocity, made friends, and influenced people. Its not even about the money. Its about making friends and influencing people. Hard lesson. But well earned and deserved. 

Covid cases are down at the store but there's always at least a good six to seven cases on the board. Meaning there aren't too many new ones but there are still a few infections still getting into the store. Got to be safe and be careful. 

Customers have become especially unruly and offensive with ignoring the mask mandate and being pushy, aggressive, and rude. 

A long time customer is donating to me a Fender Stratocaster. Even if it really was the worst of times, it doesn't get any better than that. The satire here is that we're living during a modern plague, and its still the best years of our lives. 

queue Dehumanizer by Black Sabbath

Retail vs Corona 2021-pt.1

Hello everybody, 

I've decided to write a perfunctory post about what it's been like working retail at a grocery store during the corona virus pandemic in early 2021. If you haven't been up to date with my blog, I've been documenting everything since the day before the pandemic began, when I went to a punk rock show at the Sugar Mill Saloon. You can find all that information here.

First of all, the pandemic has been tough for retail workers, especially at the grocery store I work at. The employees are dead tired and more of them are catching the virus. They don't have the energy to really put in quality care and work ethic, so in many respects, the store manager gets what they get. Most, almost all of the emergency new hire employees have quit. The ones that have stayed are very part time workers.  

There's been a few more cases at my store but all in all not that many. We have window barriers in front of the cash register to help enforce social distancing. We are no longer limiting the numbers that can come into the store, exchanging safety for more sales, unfortunately. 

There's very little cleaning if there is any that takes place. In the beginning of the pandemic the cleaning was nonstop. At this current juncture, cleaning is a mere afterthought. The cleaning people that come to clean at night don't do a very good job. Instead of cleaning surfaces, they instead focus on waxing the floor mostly. 

Middle management is stressed to breaking points sometimes because of how short staffed we are at night. Upper management seems to be oblivious to middle and lower management needs. The grunt workers have never been at a more all time low morale. Most people don't like to work retail, but you know, if you actually put in a little time, effort, and care into the work, you will be awarded and appreciated by management, coworkers, and customers. 

I've moved into a strictly cashiering role at the moment which makes my job a lot easier because I don't have to clean, take out the trash, or push carts, all of which involves touching surfaces that could've been tainted by covid, who knows? My hours have been all over the place. I've been switched from my usual closing shifts at 1 am to instead mid shifts and mornings. It's quite a change for a night owl. The one thing that is unfortunate about it is that sometimes there are many more customers in the store in the earlier parts of the day, which makes masking up and gloves and social distancing much more important than working the closing shift. 

Now that Biden is President the world has calmed down some. The death of George Floyd brought about a new class consciousness. People my age aren't doing that great in life but now that there's true leadership in office, perhaps the young can get back on the right track, getting back to work, finding housing and moving out of their parents, getting married, starting families, having goals and dreams being fulfilled within the vicissitudes of the worldhood of the world. Things always seem bleak at the darkest hour. The truth is that covid will get a lot worse before it gets better and perhaps it will get a lot worse working at the market within the next few months, but its better not to think about that too much, for in the end, I've still got a job and I'm still making money while others are out of work and stuck relying on their parents and unemployment. 

The workers really deserve that $2 return to hero pay!

A Super Spreader Event In My Town

To whom it may concern:

Tonight at my local retail grocery job, we had a what is called a super spreader event. Tonight was no average night. No sirree Bob. It was October 31, 2020. Halloween night. Halloween is a really big deal in LA of course. 

I clocked in at 7 pm and the front end was busy. Around 8 pm the managers were spending a lot of time outside trying to disperse a large crowd that was getting bigger and bigger. The crowd began gathering bigger and bigger. My estimate was that there were over 100 people [maybe more counting the ones going inside and outside the store], mostly millennials, standing around in the middle of the parking lot. They were huddled very close together, chatting among themselves. There were many young men and women who did not wear masks, guaranteeing this becoming a super spreader event. 

Now, I know that Halloween is a big deal in LA. And I know hot girls want to show off their costumes. And guys want to party but they can't have a real party. So they have a tail gate party outside of a grocery store. There are serious problems with this whole situation and I needed to jot down what happened tonight right away so you can get the information straight from the horse's mouth. 

My closing front end manager is a nice lady, a Filipino woman. But this was her first weekend closing and she could not deal with this situation. Don't get me wrong, I don't think any manager could've dispersed that crowd. She did everything she could. She called the cops and the cops came but they also did not and could not disperse this crowd. This crowd was determined to party all night in the store parking lot. They didn't leave until nearly after midnight. I've never seen anything like it. 

Another issue is the fact that many of these young people partying outside came inside the store not wearing masks. The manager told many of them to put on masks or leave but almost all of them snapped back at her with excuses for why they had to stay inside the store. One person said, "I lost my keys, I have to stay in here and look for them." 

The blatant disregard for human life was on full display here. The decline of the western male and female is on full tilt. Our millennials here in America are stupid as fuck. This is why Asia and Europe laughs at us. They would rather tailgate party, talk very loudly without wearing masks, while huddled close up together, than have a small get together and practice social distancing. 

America is in for a rude awakening. There's nothing but death and misery ahead in the coming months. It's going to be a dark winter. But at least we had a fun Halloween night, right?

Covid And the Plague of Lighthouse Keepers

Hello, everybody. Back again, with more writing exercises and ideas. The last two posts were fairly genteel posts about how to be a great healer in competitive video games. I'd like to take a departure from that to talk about something substantially more serious. However, if you are a competitive gamer that plays Heroes of the Storm, Overwatch, or Team Fortress 2, I highly recommend reading those last two posts.

So, what I'd like to discuss here is a fairly simple idea that I've touched upon already in older posts from weeks ago; Despite the mass communication of the internet, COVID-19 has caused a major disruption in all of our lives, turning us into a plague of lighthouse keepers. 

There are already a lot of people in our communities that don't like to be around others. With COVID, they have an excuse to be even more distant and go even more into isolation than previously before. Here's the kicker; until COVID is dealt a grievous blow, we're stuck in this mode of humanity, which is terrible for our health, well being, and mental health. 

Next, I'd like to go into these details as they pertain to myself. I'm naturally a very outgoing extrovert that likes to be around others. I've been on a leave of absence to be safe and stay away from potential COVID spreaders for two months as I work retail. The only contact I have with people right now is when I talk to my family, when I text friends, when I direct message people on social media, or when I play online video games with voice chat or text chat. Because of all that COVID hasn't really affected me much, but it has impacted me enough for me to take notice and write my thoughts about it in a meaningful way.

You lose a sense of community and mental well being when you're not around people and start spending almost all of your time alone. I'm actually really looking forward to going back to work in June not because I need more money [thank God], but because I'm used to a certain amount of screentime with others, engaging in conversation, and being acknowledged as a person for who I am in my community and workplace. 

Without that I'm a much different sort of person; I stop talking on voice coms and text chat in online competitive video games because I don't see the need for it, I stop direct messaging on social media apps because I think my people need more space away from me, I give my family more space and seclude myself more in whatever ways I can. The question is, is this good for me, and is it sustainable in the long run? What are the ramifications of living life in a lighthouse keeper sort of way? 

For some people, none of this might apply to them because some people naturally don't like to be around others much, and try to spend as much time away from them as possible, as well as saying as little as possible. Obviously, for those people, COVID is helping them out in a societal way. But for the vast majority of the population, they need that social construct in order to engineer their lives in a more meaningful way, myself included. 

We can't all keep going on like this and we know it. I've done really well under the circumstances but the show can't go on. As great as the digital age of the internet is in sharing and communication, it's a piss poor substitute for the real world. And that, essentially, is where the problem of COVID lies therein; it forces us to disperse and stay away from each other, and possibly even stop caring as much as we used to, and instead turn to our own quarantined, lockdown, isolated lives, looking for that spark of inspiration, that zest for life, that we simply can't get anywhere else. 

Still waiting for my saviour,
storms tear me limb from limb

Surviving the Zombie Apocalypse Virus pt. 5

Here we are. We've arrived at part five of our series. Here I'd like to jot down some general notes and ideas on the current state of affairs during this historic moment. Mostly of a personal nature. I've saved part 4 for detailing the historical aspects and news headlines. Reading through those headlines in part 4 really gives you the wider picture beyond me and my now solitary life. 

First, my life has fundamentally changed. Maybe not forever but for the indefinite future. No more guitar and singing at open mics. No more hangouts with friends. Now I live the humble life of a guitar playing, writing, gaming, grocery store worker. It ain't much, but it's a living. But at what cost? 

Some of my relationships have been put on hold. Others have gone south in some aspects. A friend of mine wants to hang out but he's got a weak immune system so I dare not hang out with him, lest I unknowingly spread the virus to him, and kill him. Another friend of mine got into it with me over comments on social media, saying that I was being delusional. I'm not going to be seeing any friends anytime soon. That much has sunk in. I've started a new life, not without them, but away from them, temporarily. 'Social distancing!' Once this thing blows over, I believe my friendships will be stronger than ever. But in the meantime, the distance has brought a rift between us. I feel sad about it, but alas, this is the fate of all. 

Well, that's grim. But remember this is only temporary. But until then it is indefinite. These are the facts, the new reality, the brave new world. Let's see how brave we really are. I'm going to keep practicing social distancing and avoid going out of the house except for work. I can't risk spreading the virus to my family, friends, or even coworkers really. Which brings me to my next point. 

Although my personal friendships are going through some rough patches I have to admit that my relationships at work with customers and coworkers have improved a hundredfold. The staff, employees, and management have really come together, showing me that even if my own friendships are put on hold, at least I have my coworkers to depend on. We've really come together at that little store. There have been so many changes, so many alternating managers and employees, that we have no other choice but to come together. Showing the power of human solidarity, our workplace is a great example for others, a beacon of hope.  We will get through this and prevail.

Lastly, I can't say that personal life has improved. It's become more solitary. More hermit-like. I really only talk to or hang out with family and coworkers. I do talk a lot to friends online on social media but social media isn't like real life. You can fake being happy or sad on social media or texts. It's artificial.

I've spent a lot of time in isolation writing nonstop. I'm going through a creative spike. I've also been playing a lot of guitar. Listening to a ton of new music via YouTube, especially classic jazz albums from the 50s and 60s that I've missed over the years. I've been reading a lot and posting my book reviews on Goodreads. Currently, I'm ranked as a #12 Reviewer in the US, ranked #19 in the world. Not too shabby for a guy who loves to read and write. You can view my ranking here. Keep in mind you have to have an account to see view it. I've also been gaming a lot to relieve the pandemic stress. I believe that nowadays more than ever we should have a good amount of time just for dumb fun. Now more than ever. 

Until the next post in this series. Keep the faith. 

Surviving the Zombie Apocalypse Virus pt. 4

So far I've been writing about the virus from a more personal perspective. Here I'd like to jot down some of the more world and/or historical facts and headlines. Keep in mind that we're somewhere in the middle of week four of the zombie apocalypse virus, our facsimile plague. I believe the one very sad thing about this historic moment other than the deaths and the continuous spreading of the virus throughout California, America, and the world is the fact that most people aren't taking this seriously. 

Not even close to taking it seriously enough. A lot of my friends are still congregating, eating together, drinking together, smoking together, partying together, and gaming together. Not good. The President's thoughts seem to tell the American people that this will be over in two weeks, fourteen days, that's when he wants to reopen everything again. Hence the lax citizens continuing to party. Anyways, here are some headlines that will put more of a worldly context on my series entitled Plague Journal, or you might recognize more as part of Surviving the Zombie Apocalypse Virus Parts 1-4, so far. 

3/24 Headlines
Trump, defying experts, talks of easing restrictions by Easter.   
People who left N.Y.C recently are asked to self-quarantine. 
China to ease lockdown. 
Bernie Sanders to participate in the next debate. 
Some pregnant women in New York City will have to deliver babies alone. 
US and U.A.E troops hold major exercise amidst the virus and Iran tensions. 
Women should have to register for the military draft, Commission tells Congress.
States say some doctors are stockpiling trial coronavirus drugs for themselves.
Density is normally good for us, that will be true after coronavirus too. 
Virus knocks out thousands of healthcare workers in Europe. 
Lt. Gov. Dan Patrick of Texas said he and other grandparents might be willing to die to keep the economy going.
Terrence McNally, Tony-Winning Playwright of Gay Life, Dies at 81. [from the virus]
Nearly a million children left behind in Venezuela as Parents Migrate. 
Here's how to give your space a makeover while you're homebound.
Olympians have another year to prepare, a blessing and a curse. 
Prime Minister of India orders total lockdown of India, including all 1.3 billion Indians. 
Facebook is "just trying to keep the lights on" as traffic soars. 
Waves of suspect websites look to cash in on pandemic. 
Helping your neighbor could hurt the neighborhood. 
For abused women, a lockdown holds dangers of its own. 
How to stay sane when the world seems crazy. 
Why mundane moments truly matter. 
Be more productive in 7 days. 
Burnout isn't just in your head, it's in your circumstances. 
A D.I.Y dance for your home. 
The Doctor and the "Apocalypse." 
Young adults come to grips with the coronavirus health risks. 
What does our body temperature say about our health? 
Share blood with your friends for vampire bats, it's good manners. 

3/25 Headlines
Senate approves a $2 trillion-dollar economic stimulus package. 
New York City has over 20,000 confirmed cases, and the death toll stands at 280.
13 Deaths in a day: An 'Apocalyptic' surge at an N.Y.C. hospital. 
Calls for federal intervention as the need for ventilators grow.  
The fine print in the bill contains special industry deals.  
Can you become immune to the virus? 
Governors tell outsiders from 'hot zone' to stay away as virus divides states. 
"Hi, please cancel our cleaning for tomorrow." Undocumented household workers are being cast out with little help. 
Europe's leaders ditch austerity and fight pandemic with cash. 
A deluged system leaves some elderly to die, rocking Spain's self-image. 
Arts groups, facing their own virus crisis, get their own piece of the Stimulus. 
Food supply anxiety brings back victory gardens. 
Even before coronavirus, the U.S. population was growing at the slowest rate since 1919.  
How to see the world when you're stuck at home. 
How to get more sleep tonight. 
Britain enlists an army of volunteers to fight the outbreak. 
Sanders is ready to debate again. Biden says, "We've had enough debates." 
White Supremacist Pleads Guilty to New Zeland mosque killings. 
Standing Rock Sioux Tribe wins a victory in the Pipeline case.  

3/26 Headlines
Markets shrug off jobless claims; Pelosi predicts bipartisan aid vote. 
S&P has the best 3-day run since 1933 as U.S. deaths top 1000.  
Jobless numbers convey the scale of economic wreckage. 
With a doctor in Brooklyn E.R.: "We're in disaster mode." 
Wallstreet shakes off the unemployment report as aid nears. 
Will I get some money? How much? And when? 
6 die as coronavirus races through an upscale retirement community. 
Europe fumbled coronavirus at first. Can it manage the pandemic now? 
Louisana may be experiencing the world's fastest growth in new cases. Mardi Gras may be why. 
Japan's virus success has puzzled the world. Has its luck run out? 
Trump wants to 'reopen America.' Here's what happens if we do. 
How to look your best on a webcam. 
What you can do about coronavirus right now. 
The baseball season opens with a dash of imagination. 
A promoter's screen test involved sex on camera, lawsuits charge. 
Venezuelan President is charged with drug trafficking in the U.S. 
Jane Goodall is self-isolating too. 
Life on the planet Mercury? It's not completely nuts. 
Take steps to counter the loneliness of social distancing.

3/27 Headlines
Trump signs a $2 trillion dollar coronavirus relief package.
Some U.S. cities could have outbreaks worse than Wuhan.
'White-collar quarantine,' Virus puts a spotlight on the class divide.  
'We take the dead from morning till night." 
I became a disciplined investor for over 40 years. The virus broke me in 40. 
'The other option is death,' New York starts sharing of ventilators.  
Blood plasma from survivors will be given to coronavirus patients. 
In the U.S., luxury brands board up the store.  
These stores are deemed 'essential' in the pandemic but not everyone agrees. 
The U.S. now leads the world in confirmed coronavirus cases. 
Updates: States plead for more federal help. 
'It's a wreck,' 3.3 million file unemployment claims. 
How the largest stimulus in history united a polarized Senate. 
$1 Billion price tag for ventilators gives White House second thoughts. 
A nurse dies, angry co-workers blame a lack of protective gear. 
Trump says he will label regions by the risk of coronavirus threats. 
The stimulus package will fundamentally transform the government.
Fact check: Trump's claim that recession will be deadlier than the virus is baseless. 
I was an accidental playboy pinup.  

3/28 Headlines

• President Trump says he is weighing enforceable quarantines for hot spots like New York, New Jersey and Connecticut as U.S. cases pass 104,000.
• New York State’s primary is delayed, and New York City may fine those who break social-distancing rules.
• Federal civil rights office rejects rationing medical care based on disability or age.
• As deaths surge, Spain and Italy look for signs of a turning point.
• Ireland enters a strict lockdown, and the U.K. checks its rule book.
• Japan is ‘barely holding on,’ Abe says, but declines to order a lockdown.

Don’t overlook the good news (yes, there is some).  

3/29 Headlines

• C.D.C. issues a travel advisory for the New York region, after Trump backs off his quarantine threat.
• U.S. civil rights office moves to prevent discrimination over who gets lifesaving care.
• A sudden lockdown in India leaves hundreds of thousands of migrants homeless and jobless.
• Illinois reports first known U.S. coronavirus infant death; Louisiana inmate dies.
• A surgeon on the front lines dies as Britain is warned of a ‘significant’ lockdown.
• America’s lost month: How the U.S. fell behind on coronavirus testing.
• Wealthier Europeans escape to second homes, stoking fear and anger in smaller communities. 

 3/30 Headlines

• As the virus’s impact expands, Washington mulls more emergency measures.
• Roughly three out of four Americans are under orders to stay home, or will be soon.
• China says it’s halting the virus’s spread. Is that true?
• Agony in Spain and Italy as deaths climb and lockdowns are extended.
• “Doctors are getting sick everywhere.” Health workers confront fear as colleagues fall ill.
• As the virus spreads behind bars, there are calls rising to free inmates.

The virus sweeps into Detroit, a city that has seen its share of hardship.

4/3/2020

• New York State records its biggest daily death toll, and pleads for the nation’s help.
• Should you wear a mask? The White House and public health officials are debating the advice.
• U.S. tries to bar 3M from exporting face masks.
• With joblessness soaring, Pelosi says it’s time to “go bigger” on another economic relief bill and wait on infrastructure.
• Half the planet is on lockdown, but not every U.S. state.
• Britain has its deadliest day as the government races for an “immunity passport.”
• Small businesses seek a share of $350 billion as some predict a chaotic process.

4/9/2020 

• As millions more Americans lose their jobs, more aid from Washington is uncertain.
• European officials agree to spend more than half a trillion euros to blunt the economic effects from the virus.
• OPEC and Russia reach a deal to cut oil production, as the pandemic drives down demand.
• New York State and Pennsylvania set new single-day records.
• In California, Newsom defends his decision to send ventilators to other states.
• In the race for virus drugs, a scientist on the front lines is urging caution.

The outbreak spreads to the South, home to some of the nation’s poorest states.

5/1/2020

• As many businesses open their doors around the country, some governors face growing resistance.
• W.H.O. extends its declaration of a global health emergency.
• Labs across the U.S. join a federal initiative to study the virus genome.
• As stay-at-home orders lift, individuals are wrestling with decisions that feel life-or-death.
• Mnuchin says private schools with large endowments should return funds.
• Texas moves aggressively to restart businesses, with restaurants, malls and movie theaters all open.
• Schools across N.Y. State will stay closed through the end of the school year, Cuomo said.

Fun Day During the Plague of 2020

Hello, ladies and gents. I wanted to write another post during what I will now call the Plague of 2020, aka coronavirus outbreak. To think our government knew this was coming for two months yet only 2,000 people have actually been tested for it in the United States. What the heck man! That's truly fucked right there. How is it even humanely possible to be that fucking stupid as the President of the United States? Now it's too late in a sense because 1) there aren't enough tests to test everyone 2) there's no way to tell if you actually have it, and or differentiating it from regular flu 3) it's already too late because the numbers are getting worse by the day. Thanks a lot, Trump. But this post isn't about Trump. But we can all agree that he's human scum for lying about there being enough tests when there aren't any nor nearly enough. The incompetence is through the roof here folks. 

Okay, okay. I'll settle down now. I just had to get the "partisan" outta me. Lol.

Now we have new social buzzwords like social distancing, aka "get the fuck away from me." In a way, I'm totally excited about these new exciting times. It's like living during the Plague. This virus is going to be so bad that it's going to completely change America and the world, turning them and it, into a better place. How? Through suffering and perseverance, things will go through the natural state of nature, a metamorphosis that will result in a better world, where people will care more. That's usually how these things work. Just ask the Chinese. They know all about it. 

Americans haven't really suffered like other cultures have suffered. This little taste of suffering will improve our character as a people. 

Anyways, considering the fact that perhaps soon there will come a time when there will be regional shutdowns, I went to my favorite Chinese restaurant. I had a wonderful meal and a good time with my dad. 

I got one of my favorite meals of all time. Barbequed pork with fried tofu and vegetables over rice. The only problem with this terrific dish is that they actually give you too much rice in proportion to the other stuff. The barbeque pork is real barbeque pork. None of that fake Panda Express stuff. Good texture and flavor. The fried tofu was hot and delicious. The rice soaked in the sauce was tasty.

My father ordered one of our favorite dishes. Barbequed pork wonton noodle soup. It's one of the best meals I've ever had in my life. A working man's meal. He enjoyed it. 

The restaurant didn't have too many people because of the virus scare. At one point everyone left except the workers and my dad and I had the entire restaurant to ourselves. At some point, more customers came in. All Chinese. No Americans. That's just the way it goes. 

I spent most of the day before and after reading Lee Child's The Midnight Line.

Fun day during the plague of 2020.